I should be doing my job or working on my MA right now, but since I am a responsible adult – I’m going to do not that, but something else. Which, in this instance is: poking my stupid finger into the hive and there are probably going to be some consequences for me. But that’s okay.
AU where John Winchester loved his boys just a little bit less and put them up for adoption and they were raised in a healthy, functional home.
They’re good boys. Mischievous, too smart for their own good, scrappy, practically…
Mini-Meta of the Week #2: In which Dean is a genius and is not regressing as a character, just as a person.
Look, a wild Destiel-with-cuddles appears! It seems to involve marshmallows and hot chocolate and snuggling under blankets watching cheesy movies together, while Sam rolls his eyes a bit and settles down with his mocha!
long paragraph about own opinion
I’m gonna just go out on a limb and say these are the most important tweets of the week.
wow. whoever posted that on IMDB is definitely off my Christmas List
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It doesn’t say untrue, but no-official.
Personally I think everybody knew that already.
But it’s good for all you to keep the excitement in a normal level.
The episodes can contain that, they cannot.
Soooo this is the episode description for 9x11…now I know I KNOW I was just going on the other day about how IMDB is INCREDIBLY unreliable in terms of information but, have we seen this description for this episode anywhere else? All we really know about this ep so far is it centers around Cain and how he “retired” from being a demon for love, yeah? I mean it couldn’t be more vague but “an abrupt change in his relationship with Castiel”?????
IM SORRY WHAT
WHAT IS WITH THIS FUCKING SHIT
WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK IS THIS FUCKING SHIT
like look at how that is fucking worded
like are you FUCKING joking
his relationship with Castiel
like is sam even back?
cause like in 9x10 they’re like saving him
but he’s not mentioned in this
and this is about Cain
literally about cain retiring from being a demon
are you fucking joking
literally what is this
i swear to all that is fucking holy
if they get me excited
and it’s some fucking no homo bullshit
AND ITS WRITTEN BY ROBBIE IM GONNA FUCKING VOMIT
"an abrupt change comes about in his relationship with castiel"
Like it can’t be negative Cas is in every goddamn episode after this
AND IM SORRY LOOK AT THE PREVIEW THING FOR 9x10
Don’t know about you, but this sounds fake as hell to me.
#look dean#I’m hunting#I’m useful#I can do what you do Dean#I can be of help to you#Dean#please let me stay with you#please don’t shut me out#please don’t discard me like an used up tool with a broken handle#dean please#please love me#please#I thought maybe… (via yellow-turtle)
And you have to wonder, don’t you? How much of Cas’ decision to take Theo’s grace was because he wanted to be useful again- or maybe because he knew that he couldn’t be with Dean, human or angel, and the only thing that he could do was stay away the way that Dean asked, was to become the hardened warrior that he had put aside in Dean’s gentling presence. Dean doesn’t accept him as a human, not the way that Cas sees it, and so he steals another angel’s grace and distances himself again, because the worst pain of humanity isn’t the physical, it’s the roaring in his ears when Dean tells him to go.
While I don’t think this was his only motivation, I am pretty convinced that Dean’s renewed rejection ultimately contributed to Cas stealing another angel’s grace - which, by the implication of it, appears to be some kind of taboo. Lacking background knowledge, Cas apparently believed that Dean rejected the human he’d become. That a humble, somewhat dorky sales associate was not someone he would ever want to associate with. That Dean’s interest in him was merely in the what, not in the who. And it’s so sad because you could see so clearly that Dean loved human!Cas to pieces. He was so proud, so happy. I think this is emphasised one last time when he asks Cas whether he’s really okay with being an angel again. Because apparently, deep down, Dean is not. He wanted to be with human!Cas and experience all the human goodness with him, like having beers together, or watching movies, or just being adorably dorky. And then Cas calls him and he realises it’s already over and he didn’t even get to cherish it. Poor Dean, poor Cas.
However, I think Cas’ eventual choice also ties in with other parts of his personality. He tried to stay out of the fray, but he couldn’t, because that’s not who he is - human or not. When Cas showed up at the crime scene, I felt his decision was already made.
As dustydreamsanddirtyscars pointed out, Malachi is both a call-back to season 6!Cas as well as a veritable possibility who Cas might eventually become if he continues rejecting his “human” side, the part of him that is kind and compassionate, that craves love and apprecation, that wants to be safe and wanted and happy. Castiel rejected that part for the time being because he feels it only keeps him from doing what must be done, but as said here, I am also certain that this choice was triggered and ultimately reinforced by Dean’s attitude.
I agree with all of the above. While ulitmately it was up to Cas to decide whether he wanted to join the fray as an angel again or not and in order to do so stealing another angel’s grace, I feel like Dean telling Cas that he can’t stay and/or work with him, was what influenced Cas most. That is btw also the reason why I personally cannot really be bothered by the claim of plot hole in regards to Cas only know thinking about stealing another angels grace. To me this actually has nothing to do with “plot hole”, it only has something to do with Cas’ state of mind. Imo Cas knew he could steal Hael’s grace or some other angel’s grace long before he stole Theo’s. The point is: He didn’t want to. He wanted to be human. He truly wanted to give it a shot. Especially because when he killed most of the angels, whose graces he could have taken as well, he still had hope, he had a “plan”. He was on his way to the bunker. He thought he would be with the Winchesters. But the tables turned, reality came crashing down on Cas, he felt unwanted. Like ladyofthesilent points out, to Cas it must have felt like Dean was more interested in his powers rather than him as a person, which is far from true as we know, but which Cas unfortunately doesn’t. Which is why all of it is so painful and tragic to watch. They want to be together, but they can’t (Btw: You know that this is one of the most popular romantic tropes, right? The two lovers, who get separated time and time again?), cause choices and life is tearing them apart. Not just tearing apart, but also tearing down. As I have said before in my metas on Cas and Dean in S8/S9 yesterday, to me S9 marks “DECAY”, so this turn of events to me only makes sense.
This season (as was S8) to me seems to be all about re-addressing issues from S6/S7 and confronts the characters with their choices and what it did to them and how it influenced them in becoming who they currently are and what they need to do in order to be able to become who they truly want to be. Cas has to face himself as has Dean. And what they see might be far from what they like, but that is kind of the point. Imo S8/S9 are a complete re-writing/re-imagining of plot points of S6/S7: Choice, Miscommunication, Alienation, Grief.
And it’s all going to get so much worse once Dean comes to realize that he might have been the one to push Cas over the edge, when in reality he wanted to be with Human!Cas so bad, but ruined it.
And since this season is all about showing stages of “decay” I personally wouldn’t be surprised at all if we’d see Dean reverting back to old habits and coping mechanisms, we thought he had left behind - like drinking for example (tbh I might be kind of disappointed if they let this perfect opportunity slip to re-address Dean’s alcoholism and give it a proper pay off when they enter the “transformation”-phase) as well.
ONE OF MY FAVORITE THINGS IN SUPERNATURAL
IS WHEN THEY SHOW DEAN AND CAS SHARING THESE AWKWARD “WHAT THE HELL’S GOING ON BETWEEN US” MOMENTS
AND THEN THEY CUT TO SAM